bila ili mengarut

Dear diary,

I've been very generous with tears lately..Wasting da fluid I had for a few days already..tuesday,wednesday,thursday,friday... I am now officially a c e n g e n g girl...A cry baby...Sikit sikit menangis, sakit sikit menangis...tataula,even naim usik2 sket je aku rasa mcm terasa sgt,sakit perut sikit je nak nangis,lenguh kaki sikit pun nak nangis,homagoddah... I've never cried so much in ma life! Like, so continuously!!!

....apelah nak jadik..hak hak hak..maybe it was because I only stayed alone in ma room, ma mind was at total peace...

before ni pun hanna pun ade tegur aku mood gile swing..urm...haila..tp xpela,janji aku balik umah baru aku nangis,harini barulah xnangis..haisy..mcm kelakar pun ade bila naim smlm balik je keje terus mcm2 cara die nak pujuk aku follow UMC futsal..tournament ngn budak2 club lain..tapi kdg2 buli beliau mcm tu agak best jgk..mcm comel gile la die time tu..hahaha,act,mmg aku akan follow pun,tp sajeje aku ckp kat die yg maybe aku xfollow,sbb PMS sbnrye..*nilah die sbnarnye sbb mood aku swing gile,even before ni xde plak teruk smpai camni..so die kate la..xsyiok nak tinggalkan aku kat umah sorang2..hehehe...(mase ni memang die tatau yang memang aku nak follow)siap die rasuah aku ngn sekinchan,flaming la..hahaha..comelnye die..sweet sgt..(sorry eh u...i memang nak follow pun sebenarnye la..plus mula2 nak jumpa cucunda2 kat sane)hehehe...then,time tu die da berhabisan memujuk rayu..sampaila aku bangun bersiap baru nak senyum..jgn risaula sayang..i akan sentiasa support ape je yg u suka..ogey?tp lpas ni kalau syg xfollow pun,u just p sajela..i ogey saje..:)

I found this lovely quote on the net. Just thought I should share it with you..its not looked like closely related with me but still..i really like this!so enjoy ur reading guys..

A girl wont cry easily,

Except in front of the person who she love the most, she becomes weak.

A girl wont cry easily, only when she love you the most, she put down her ego.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you, please hold her hands firmly, she's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you, please don't give her up, maybe because of your decision, you ruined her life.

When she cries right in front of you,
When she cries because of you,
Look into her eyes,
Can you see and feel the pain and hurt she's feeling?
Think.
Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity,
In front of you,
And because of you?

She cries not because she is weak,
She cries not because she want sympathy or pity,
She cries,
Because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt, and agony have become too big a
burden to be kept inside.

Guys,
Think about it,
If a girl cries her heart out to you,
And all because of you,
Its time to look back on wat you have done,
Only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,
Cos' one day,
It may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say "I'm sorry".

To my friends...
Ponder this message seriously.
Don't do this to a girl,
You may regret for the rest of your life.
Maybe in your life, she's the only one that love YOU the most.
Remember this lesson..

She cries not because she is weak,
She cries not because she want sympathy or pity,
She cries,
Because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt, and agony have become too big a
burden to be kept inside.

Tired of crying already but da tears still mcm nak rush out..jeng jeng..due to naim kena p tengok site jgk esok aka kejeeee..,baruje dpt bbm,haila..it is just so hard la, people! u see, when u're trying oh-so-very-very hard to be cool as u can..tpi aku memang xboleh..haisy,tlgla..nak cabut jap perasaan sensitip ni..boley x..haisy,kesian naim...TT

I really really really hope to close this tears factory by tomorrow. No more crying..hehehe...so harini still boley la nak banjir 1 umah pun.sob sob..

okey..da end cite semalam n cite nangis-nangis..

ehem ehem..mood changed to:ili Shakespeare

Da morning was cloudy, with sprays of rain intermittently...n yah,its raining outside here,erm..naim pagi2 da kena p site..tinggalah aku srg2..*sedih lagi,tapi ni memang janji xnangis pun..hehehe...

erm..lepas naim p keje aku terus mandi,n terus jadik suri rumah..hehehe,laundry,housekeeping bla bla..pastu..time to jimba2..g temankan cucunda (si alya n Dina) skating n belikan birthday gift :) kat pyramid..jenjalan afta da beli ticket..then tapau popeye's & California rolls je untuk cik abg sbb aku xsempat masak :)hehehe..pastu...hehehe,jalan punya jalan..masa duk tunggu si Dina belikan hadiah tu aku pun rasa mcm nak beli untuk naim skali..saje..die kan skrg bru start industrial practical..so aku belikan die pen..boley

act aku taip benda ni dari smlm smpai pagi ni xsudah..motif sgt kan..hahaha..

ogey..harini ahad..n da best part is..naim keje??haisy..arap2 Dato' Zul nampakla yg cik abg aku tu rajin betul..n boley la compare dgn student praktikal yg setakat nak ambik syarat je (KALAU MAKAN CILI,RASALA PEDAS SKET KAN)..haa..yg part ni aku agak sakit hati....keje malas..okey..ko mmg pempuan,da tu ko da ambik civil eng..kenala lasak sket..taula byk faktor nape ko agak lem lem tu (KO SENDIRI TAU KOT APE FACTOR.MUAHAHA)..tapi plz la...ape2 pasni terus je inform n tanye boss ko..HUSBAND AKU BUKAN BOSS YE...kalau nak dress up cantik2 (URM,KO KATEGORI C O M E L)..nak duk lam air cond je..hah,alangkah baiknye kalo ko ambik course mcm aku ambik ni ah..takyah ko bakar lemak2 yg ko ade kat site..shoot!ni tak..ambik civil,tapi lemau..kesian btul..aku tabik betul pda kwn2 aku yg ambik engineering,pmpuan jgk..mantap lagi..tu baru betul nak jadik engineer..haisy,marah betul aku ni...

okey..titik pasal pempuan ni,bknla nk marah xtentu pasal..tp aku kesian kat practical student len,kalau org len boley buat keje betul2,nape ko nak men2..da boss suh ko keje ahad ke,public holiday ke..ko keje je la..komited la sket,malu wei bila lelaki lagi rajin,lagi bersungguh2 buat keje..yg ko plak duk melepak je..ish ish..bila aku dgr naim cite..apek kena stay sampai malam sbb nak siapkan bla bla..n each tasks given tu mmg ambk masa abt 1 hour..to be complete..aku mcm..kagum gile wei..naim sndri pun..kat umah still sambung buat calculation,engkau?bkn aku nak PUJI HUSBAND sendiri,tapi ni mmg betul...geram je aku rase bila ko ala-ala setakat nak copy paste n nak semua biar senang keje ko kan..shoot again!aku sbnrye xde nye tetiba nak emo n ambik tau pasal ko..tapi dah ko menyusahkan husband aku..aku agak rasa mcm sakit hatila..kalau ko nak malas,ko xnak dtg keje..as long as ko xsusahkan laki aku..lantak ko la kan..ini x..haisy,silala cpt2 sedar sblum ko kena marah lagi ngn Dato' tu..huhuhu....bangunla eh..ke ko nak aku simbah air dulu kat muka ko baru nak bangun..hisy...

p/s:kalau emo aku stable pun,aku tetap nak marah ngn ko!kalo aku jmpa ko depan2..boleh je aku nasihat terus.. :)